Making the Best of an Unplanned Gap Year: My Journey of Self-Discovery

The Dreaded Comparison Game

Whenever I think about my friends and classmates, I can't help but feel a little like a character in a sitcom. They’re off to college, continuing their study, while I’m here with my uncertain future, binge-watching Netflix and grinding ranks in online games. It’s like watching everyone else in the show get their storylines while I’m stuck in a perpetual rerun. The thought of potentially wasting a year is daunting. But, at least my virtual game ranks are impressive!

The Art of Procrastination

Instead of diving into my study books, I've become an expert in the art of procrastination. Grinding ranks in online games and binge-watching Netflix have become my daily rituals. Even when I manage to pull myself away from the screen, I end up procrastinating on any productive work I had planned. It’s a vicious cycle, but I’m trying my best to break free.

Self-Reflection: The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Despite these setbacks, I'm trying my best to improve. The one positive thing I'm doing is spending time examining myself. Self-reflection is key to understanding and improving oneself, and I've realized that I have a lot of room for growth. I've found myself to be lazy and irresponsible, traits that aren't conducive to achieving my goals. But, acknowledging these flaws is the first step toward change.

The Sleep Cycle Debacle

Let’s talk about my current sleep routine. It’s now a masterpiece of chaos. I stay up all night playing games, often sleeping around 3 AM and waking up at 11 AM. This messed-up sleep cycle leaves me feeling like a zombie all day. Seriously, if there was an Olympic sport for bad sleep schedules, I’d be a gold medalist. Proper rest is essential for energy, and I need to fix my sleep schedule soon.

My Daily Rollercoaster

Here’s a glimpse into my daily routine during this dropped year:

11 AM: Wake up (yes, you read that right), freshen up, and have breakfast.

Post-Breakfast: Check my blog stats. Seeing low traffic is a bit like opening a bag of chips to find it half empty. But sometimes I get new viewers from foreign countries, which feels like finding a surprise gift in that same chip bag.

Social Media Spiral: Check Instagram to see how my reels(cover song) performed. Low engagement? Bummer. But hey, I’m continuously trying to improve and not let the numbers get me down.

Content Creation Conundrum: Creating content can be like trying to find a needle in a haystack while blindfolded. I often brainstorm blog topics by calling friends for suggestions or turning to AI. While AI gives trending topics, they usually have high competition, so I prefer covering underrated and unique subjects. Ohh I almost forgot Recently, I created a page for GenZ content, which you can check out here.

The YouTube Study Slog

When it comes to my entrance exam preparation, I listen to one lecture a day (about 3 hours long) on YouTube at 1.2x speed and solve related problems. I know this isn’t enough, but hey, baby steps, right? I’m gradually increasing my study hours and hoping for the best.

The Never-Ending Loop

And after all this, I dive back into the endless loop of social media checks, content creation, and self-reflection. It’s a rollercoaster, but I’m learning to navigate it, one loop at a time.

That's it for now. Let’s see what the future holds. Even though things seem uncertain and my routine is a bit chaotic, I have to keep moving forward. At least in the future, I’ll be able to say I tried. Or maybe I’ll just write a best-selling memoir about my misadventures.